All my life, nothing has been easy. I know most people struggle at one point or another.All my life, I had known that I was a surprise. I was not expected which was not a bad thing. What I do know is that the year I was born, was the year that my mother had half a lung removed. She did not know she was going to have me and on top of it all, I was born a month early. I was supposed to be born around my grandfather’s birthday, but I was born 6 days before my grandmother’s birthday. So I was a premmie. With that, I did have some problems. To be honest, I was better off than some. Some have more problems than I did. The only real problem was that I had cataracts and that was not found out until I was 3 years old. That was removed of course. The good part about that though is that I don’t have to worry about getting it when I am older. One thing that was not caught in time and who knows if it could have been fixed anyways is that I am blind in one of my eyes. Vision loss may not be the same in everyone. I have some vision in that know but nothing sustancial. I do not have full vision in that eye. That side can only see part of an image.
Technology has come a long way, but if there was something to help me see out of that eye, I do not know if I would. It would be different if I was a little kid, but I feel that it could do more harm than good.
Simple fact, I am used to the way I am. What if it causes more harm than good. I am used to seeing out of one eye and what if my brain can’t adapt to the change?
A lot of times, I have a hard time admiting that I am disabled. I am really in that middle ground of an area. I am disable, but I am not. What I do know is that I have to be careful on what I do.
I have always struggled with school, but I do like to learn. I just have a hard time with science and math. To me, education is important. I believe that it could be a path to something better. That is why hopefully in the fall, I will be back in college I may struggle in school but its doable. I have to do what it takes to be successful. I went to college before and I want to finish what I started many years ago. I know I can do it and I will only have two semester and I will have my degree. When I was not that far away, I think it would be best to finish and hopefully I will be able to find a job after that.