Feeling Under Appreciated

I am not going to go into specifics here. There are days that I feel underappreciated.

I loved my mother, but she treated me like I was disabled. I am not. Well I am in between. I am blind in one eye and there is nothing that I can do about it. I do not drive because of that. I think its the worse thing a parent can do regardless of if your child has a disability or not. I do not know what it is like as a parent, but I know what its like on the receiving end of it all.

The reason why I say I am in between is that I am not disabled enough to be considered disabled, but it does prevent me from doing other things like driving a car. Each person is different. Some people who can only see out of one eye can drive and others cannot. I am the one who cannot. It all depends on the situation.

Why am I talking about this? Because there are times I feel underappreciated. I feel I am overlooked because I am blind in one eye. It does not mean I cannot do something because of it. It just means that I do things differently.

I can play online video games and I can kick ass. I know I have a big head when it comes to that but I can kick ass. In almost any game I play, I found and have enjoyed PVP. It may seem funny but I am good and I have frustrated people because of it. Its so funny. My point is just because I am blind in one eye does not mean I do not excel at anything. When it comes to online gaming and PVP means I have fast reflexes and I can react fast if need be. Because of that, I can do the same thing in real life. I know its different but its not.

That is just one example of what I can do. Because of my limitations its really hard to find a job because I am limited to where I can go. I am thinking I need to go where I can get around without needing a car. Its a matter of finding that right job and making enough to support myself. What I am doing right now is not supporting me enough to get my own place and I need it for my own sanity.

I am not slow and I can learn anything if I put my mind to it and I am willing to learn. The area that I can catch on fast with is technology. I have always been like that I also like being creative 🙂